This Year by JJ Heller.
They released this video last New Year’s Day (2015) and I’m so glad they did. It fits every new start.
This year my goal is honesty.
Lately, I’ve been trying to be more honest with myself, as well as those around me. I’ve taken a few big steps in that area, and I intend to take many more. After all, honesty is the best policy!
After I had learned about that phrase as a child, I reminded myself of it absently, but I tried to follow it over the years, but the past few months I’ve been feeling the pressure of needing to be truthful weigh on how I treat myself. I realized not very long ago that I have a tendency to push my own issues aside while I try to handle other people’s issues first, even though I know I can’t and shouldn’t, especially when I have enough pulling at my heart. But here’s the thing. I don’t want to acknowledge my own issues. I’d rather help other people handle their’s and shove mine into a corner until “I have more time” to deal with it. I don’t want to deal with the pain of past hurts and unresolved issues because I have this idea that it shouldn’t matter to me anymore, so I should simply forget about it and “move on.”
I realize now that my version of “moving on” just makes the issue harder to deal with later, because instead of facing it, I throw a hand up and ignore it for months, or even years at a time. That’s real healthy, I know.
So I’ve got a lot to learn. I mean, we all do, don’t we? But thanks to my wonderful family, friends, and mentors, I’ve been making small improvements, and I’ve taken many difficult baby-steps to try to get better at this thing called truth.
We’re all a work in progress. I’m realizing as I type this that maybe I’ll never quite be where I think I should be, or where I would like to be in life. Maybe I’ll always be idealizing the next space on which I want to land on the board, but God wants me to hang back for two turns, or quite possibly, jump ahead to a better space.
And to keep to my goal, to be honest with myself, I believe it’s time I try to learn to be joyful right where I am in life, simply because God got me here. Maybe it’s one of those times in which I should linger in the moment and simply soak it in. Because, let’s be real… with God, it’s a pretty great spot, even amid chaos.
So my New Year’s Resolutions are as follows:
Be honest with myself and with God,
and learn to be joyful where I am.
I invite you to reflect on the past year.
I invite you to dream of what this year could hold.
I invite you to learn to love yourself, and love your life tenderly.
I invite you to find what makes your heart sing.
I invite you along on this journey called life.
Happy New Year! Let’s make it a beautiful one!