Today, I was reminded of why I do so much for people most of the time…
I had been questioning my effectiveness a lot lately.. how much am I actually doing?…There has to be something more that I have to do.. I feel unproductive and like I’m not getting where I’m supposed to be. Why do I do certain things for people? How the heck am I still going after everything that’s happened in my life? How am I capable? What more should I do?
But then I had a realization…
At the beginning of the summer, we all were expecting nice trips and vacations and parties and projects all over the place. Our typical summers, except that we finally wanted to take a vacation or two and go somewhere special and completely relaxing.
Then, in May.. my mother was diagnosed with Breast Cancer.
The bomb was dropped.
We were all devastated for a while, everything was hectic and terrifying most of the time. As time went on, though, we found a great treatment center who knew exactly what they were doing and things are going much more smoothly now.
We never had a chance to take all of those trips to places we’ve never been or try many new things, though. We had family trips and my parents had treatment trips. That was it.
All through this time we had all been working very hard to help out and get things done. I had a lot going on in my friends’ lives, so I was trying to be there for them while taking care of my mom and supporting the rest of my family, as well as attempting to balance several projects and events, and figure out the next year of my college career.
Needless to say, I haven’t truly relaxed much in months. I have been exhausted. I have been near the end of my fuse. I have been restless and stressed. I have been questioning my abilities and how much I could handle.
Today was when it hit me…
I was helping my mom get things together for a doctor’s appointment and a trip this afternoon. I helped her put her head scarf on and as i was doing that, she thanked me for all that I’ve been doing for her. She said this summer was supposed to be a summer vacation for me, but that I’ve worked so hard instead. I kissed her on the head and adjusted the scarf.
She said she loves me, I told her I love her too, and I said that this is why I do all of this.
That single moment changed my doubts and concern about what I was doing.
I do it all because of the Love that God has placed in my heart and filled my life with.. I do it because I care, and I’m needed. I do it because it’s why I’m here. I may complain and get stressed out sometimes, but tender moments like I had with my mom remind me of the purpose of our sacrifices.
We sacrifice our time, energy, and health for other people because we are capable of having so much love to spread out to others.
God made us capable. He fills our hearts with unfailing Love, and we pour it into other people’s lives.
Keep in mind your purpose today.
Keep in mind God’s command.
That we Love others.